To My Younger Self, Stay There

Life can really feel overwhelming at times.

Moments you don’t see coming suddenly arrive all at once—like a full blow you never prepared for. One minute things feel normal, and the next you’re surrounded by emotions that don’t seem to make sense together. Happy. Sad. Frustrating. Disappointing. Exciting. Dreadful. All at the same time.

Sometimes it makes you want to disappear for a while.
Like going to some land far, far away… and only coming back when things feel good again.

But that’s not how life works. Unfortunately.

We don’t get to skip the difficult chapters. We have to go through every bad moment to truly appreciate the good ones. Sometimes we even have to go through them just to realize how strong we are for surviving them. And truthfully, we wouldn’t make it through any of it without the grace of God quietly carrying us along the way.

Still, there are days when you can’t help but think about that line people often say:

“To my younger self, just stay there. It’s lonely here.”

Because sometimes you really do wish you could go back.

Back to being a kid with no real worries.
Back when everything somehow felt okay.

You weren’t involved in family problems.
You didn’t understand the weight of loss, and deaths didn’t hurt as deeply because you were too young to grasp what forever meant.
You had no idea what employment felt like or how exhausting responsibility could be.

The future was simply tomorrow.

Tomorrow meant wondering what game you and your classmates would play.
Or which ponytail or hair clip you’d wear to school.

Little things like that.

Now that you’re an adult, those little things feel so far away. Life suddenly feels heavier, like you’re carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. And sometimes it feels like there’s nothing you can do about it.

So you sit there.

Feeling the weight.
Feeling the exhaustion.
Trying to make sense of the pain.

You hope tomorrow will be better. And deep down, you know it probably will be.

But the difficult part is that you have to go through today first before tomorrow gets better.

And some days… you’re just tired.

Sometimes even a little hopeless.

But somehow, you still wake up the next day. And maybe that alone is proof that even when life feels unbearably heavy, you’re still stronger than you think.




au revoir. 😊

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