When Your Heart and Hormones Team Up Against You

There’s this kind of sadness that arrives without warning.

One moment, everything is fine. The next, you're lying in bed wondering about your future, replaying old memories, and feeling anxious about things that weren't even on your mind yesterday.

Then you check the calendar.

Oh.

It's that time of the month again.

If you know, you know.

It's strange how a flood of emotions can appear out of nowhere. Suddenly, you're sad. You're anxious. You're worried about things you normally handle just fine. Problems seem bigger. Uncertainties feel heavier. Even the smallest inconvenience can feel like the final straw.

The hardest part isn't even the emotions themselves.

It's the confusion.

Because while you're feeling all these things, another part of you is trying to figure out whether those feelings are real or if they're simply being amplified by hormones.

Are you genuinely sad?

Are you actually anxious?

Is this concern valid?

Or is PMS just turning the volume all the way up?

You find yourself caught between believing your emotions and questioning them at the same time.

And honestly, I think that's one of the saddest parts of being a woman.

Not because we experience sadness or anxiety, but because sometimes we don't know whether to trust what we're feeling. We become our own skeptics. We second-guess our own hearts.

There are moments when I want to say, "This is what I feel."

But then another voice says, "Wait until your period starts. Maybe you'll feel differently."

And somehow that makes everything even more confusing.

I know PMS affects everyone differently. Some experience it mildly. Others barely notice it at all. But for those of us who feel like we've been emotionally hit by a truck every month, it can be exhausting.

It's difficult carrying emotions that feel incredibly real while simultaneously wondering if they'll disappear in a few days.

Maybe that's why I wanted to write about it.

Because sometimes it feels lonely.

And maybe I'm not the only woman who has found herself crying over something, worrying about everything, and then realizing that her period is due in a few days.

Maybe there are others out there quietly fighting the same battle every month.

If that's you, I see you.

And if nothing else, perhaps we can find comfort in knowing that we're not losing our minds.

It's just our hormones reminding us, once again, that being a woman is both beautiful and unbelievably complicated.

au revoir. 😊